Today was one of those pensive days…
The fabutots and I had a great weekend and were just winding down. Throughout the day, I had been checking in on the Puerto Rican primary, and was amazed at how they said PR has about 2 million voters in one particular area. I thought, "Wow, I’m just one person…"
I grilled for the kids today, and as I heard the rumble of thunder in the distance, I remembered that I had forgotten to put the cover back on the grill (Captain America, don’t have a heart attack! It’s back on!). I waited outside for a bit, smelling the rain in the air; hearing cracking of thunder, and the wind whisper in the trees. I looked up at the sky and saw how wide and open it was– the different shades of blue and grey, with disgruntled clouds moving quickly through the sea of blue. The longer I looked, the bigger the sky looked, and I felt so small. There are so many things going on in the world today– politics, racism, sexism, natural disasters, global warming, wars, terrorism….Just one person…a tiny person, no significance…another number in the vast majority of world.
Then I walked into the house and my kids jumped on me as if they hadn’t seen me in years. Shrieking of excitement to tell me about some very minor detail (but was huge to them), they clamored over me and commanded my attention so they could share. As the night grew on and we all huddled to watch one of our favorite movies (Pirates of the Caribbean 2), my daughter clung to me as if I would disappear.
And I felt big.
Small in the world, but three little people’s everything. Not just another number, but number one in the lives of my children.
There are times when we think that our problems are the only thing that are in our lives at that season. That we are our current circumstances. One of my favorite sayings is, "Stop telling God how big your situation is, and tell your situation how big your God is". But there is more to it as well. Sometimes in the hustle and bustle of life, we let so many things encompass us and speed up our lives….instead of taking the time to realize what’s really important, or just enjoy small moments like smelling the rain…or being tackled and smothered in kisses by small children.
There’s a saying, "To the world you might be just one person, but to one person, you might be the world".
If you ever need a pick me up or reality check, walk outside…and walk back in to those who love you.